Today I took time to reflect on the way in which I’ve spent my Sundays for the past few months versus how I used my 86400 today. Hope you caught that reference 😉
For the past few months, I’ve been working, however, last week was well….my last week. It felt bittersweet because I grew attached to the work environment, the grind to withstand the 7 am – 4:30 pm timeframe became addictive, and the challenge to look for simple ways to create maximum efficiency was extremely satisfying. However, I had more on my plate than I cared to admit. As ego would have it, I convinced myself I could do it all. It was only a matter of time before reality would stomp all over this dreamscape. I learnt there is a difference between pushing your limits and asking for trouble. But that’s not what this post is about! Instead, I’d like to share what I learnt while at work about time.
The value of time became completely redefined. From the minute my eyes opened, to the moment I’d be running through the door to beat the clock. My lunch hour consisted of eating, napping and reading threads about building databases in the hopes of optimizing certain functions at work. My body learnt very quickly how to power nap and snap back like a rubber band from sleep to working. Each minute felt as fleeting as fingers playfully brushing along your spine – very much present; very much fleeting. I suppose everyone that’s working has experienced this hyperaware state of time. It was very much a first for me. The structure became addictive, but when I got home, I craved to blog, study for school, pour energy toward an environmental initiative, study for a major French exam and research future potential courses. I knew I had to choose one for each evening if I was going to manage myself properly, but when university night classes were added to the mix, I felt myself begin to crumble.
I’m sure this could by applied to social media applications and Youtube, which by the way I now accept as a luxury whenever I use the platforms. But, what if your distraction was also another necessary part of your life? How do parents manage their responsibilities? How do you choose between your passion and what’s necessary? I suppose a lot of the time we compromise and accept half-assing everything on the plate instead of discarding a portion. We settle for a good enough reality instead of achieving our great vision.
Sometimes- you just need to choose and own that decision as if it were your last. It doesn’t mean you’re leaving that part of your life behind. For example, work gave me the perspective and discipline necessary to make my vision of SARAYU a reality, but ultimately, I had to leave it behind. However, I’m keeping my body on the same sleep cycle it fell into when working so that I’ll have more hours to put toward the other less structured parts of my life that matter equally as much as work as well as studies.
As someone who loves to read, I know how easy it is to get carried away with consuming information. But I could read about the Circadian rhythm all I want- unless I train myself to get into routine- the habit wont become a reality. There’s something about doing and learning along the way that makes so much sense. There will always be things to learn- ways to improve- room to grow.
So my question to you is: Do you spend your time searching for the best solution or using the tools at your disposal and improving along the way? Do you settle for good enough or are you going to make the decisions necessary to see your great vision become your great reality?
I understand this is a very touchy topic and I apologize if it offends anyone. However, I’m open for discussion.
Let’s try to make our dreams a reality together with some constructive conversation
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